Any port in a storm.....except that one.

Myspace

2006-08-30T12:27:00.000-07:00

People seem to be liking to use the myspace nows, so I'll be moving over there I think.

Partially because I just don't post anything anymore, and partially because I've already had several friends use it to look me up for contact info. Also, it'll be nice to have the full 'web name' I use for (literally) everything. Since this one seems to confuse people.

www.myspace.com/kroonermanblack

Longitude

2006-06-25T20:41:00.000-07:00

So, for anyone who hasn't noticed and/or doesn't care, I've been offshore for 1.5 weeks now. Not bad. Haven't gone stir crazy yet. Even more not badder. I have intermittent internet access, so feel free to either email or IM me if I'm online, if you care to.

Job

2006-05-22T19:20:00.000-07:00

Delayed, but I have a summer internship now. Nice job, nice pay, nice people. I will, however, be going offshore next week or so. So if someone wants to get together and go to a bar, let me know since I plan on spending a few nights doused. Especially wednesday. Going to get to Two Rows as early as I can, hehe.

Hair!

2006-05-02T06:50:00.000-07:00

Someone on the internet finally answered my hairlessness question! Wee! And no, this was in no way involved with me, it is part of a series.

http://www.nerve.com/regulars/singlelife/006/

Bah. Women.

2006-04-25T20:14:00.000-07:00

It continually amazes me that women fail to understand movies. They will walk out of an action movie proclaiming, much like a mule, it was terrible.

No one goes to see action, comedy, etc. movies because they expect god damn motherfucking masterpieces. They expect things to blow up, blood, general violence, probably T&A.

If I want excellent writting, I'm not going to look for the latest thing hollywood has shit out and packaged into a right proper shiny package. Even fucking brokeback wasn't all that 'amazing'. It was just fucking emotional. It tugged on the heartstrings. That doesn't make it good. Just makes it a non-action movie.

I go to movies to laugh. Or to be entertained. Not to cry. I have had enough sadness in my life, that 'does this movie make me want to eat a cyanide slushy' is not high on my priority list. Most of the time, 'does this movie make me want to think about something' is just one place above that. Because, hey, I want to go and shut down my brain for an hour or 2, and just watch someone elses script play out.

Sure, I've seen it all before, there's nothing new in 'guy' movies. I can predict the shit. I'm good like that. But it doesn't matter. Cause I'm there for the 'splodies. Not the writting.

But what gets me is that 'chick flicks' are somehow more intrinsically valuable, meaningful, and better.

Food?

2006-04-23T18:04:00.000-07:00

I've discovered that if I go for ~12 hours without eating my appetite shuts down, and I start to feel sick at the thought of food.

juego

2006-04-19T19:18:00.000-07:00

Recently, I've been trying to figure out the whole hair thing again. It really does confuse me. Why are women expected to have ridiculous secondary puberty traits (hips, breasts) but lack primary ones, of hair (underarm, pubic, etc.). Just doesn't make sense why it would somehow be 'more attactive' to sleep with a 12 year old boy with breasts.

Yay!!

2006-03-31T14:09:00.000-08:00

I get to fill out an application! I'm that much closer to actually getting a summer internship I want! Apparently, I wasn't such a bad interview after all.

Finishingmentism

2006-03-27T05:44:00.000-08:00

Sssooo, that last post was sort of a place holder to remind me to post something. But I forgot about it, so wee! Anyway...

It seems like in modern society, we're moving from place to place to place much more than we used to. Back in medieval era, entire generations of family would be stuck in one place. Usually, all of those generations living in the same house. Occasionally trying to do it at the same time. Now, seems like we're lucky if we stay in the same town for 10 years. I think everyone's moved at least once. There's more stuff that I could think of and point out, but I believe the basic point I was trying to make here is done. So wee?

Addendum: I didn't intend for the reminder post to sound so emo.

eternal transience

2006-03-19T06:38:00.000-08:00

Nothing is stable anymore, really, is it?

Finito?

2006-03-18T20:55:00.000-08:00

Well, break's over, so hope no one's headed down there right now.

Lakelake!

2006-03-09T06:47:00.000-08:00

59 N to lufkin

right on s medford or Loop 287

take 103 E exit right

cross long bridge over lake

first rd to right just after crossing bridge

follow black top around curve take first left

we are the second trailer on right on the corner

bright blue and white

Note that the road is <100 feet after the bridge, so you want to slow down. It's right in front of an old closed motel. If you read this and I didn't invite you, either call and ask or just come on. Er, I'm not leaving till friday sometime though, so you should probably wait till then.

Yes, it's a bit gratuitous

2006-03-05T19:27:00.000-08:00

I feel better. I'd pull those last two posts, but no looking back. Thanks to the like 3 people who read and gave a shit.

2006-03-01T12:25:00.000-08:00

I feel like such a fucking failure.

Ya......no.

2006-03-01T09:08:00.000-08:00

So, in case anyone is interested, I think there's about a 70% chance I'm not going to get that internship.

Yay for fucking failure.

... .. .

2006-02-22T21:37:00.000-08:00

Fucking nightmares.

fweh

2006-02-19T06:52:00.000-08:00

I've been thinking lately that there is a 4 dimensional analysis of any male character in European books. Think of a graph, with the x,y scale. These are Christ/Herakles (I spelled it like that cause it's more fun) on the X, and Father/son on the Y. Someone can either be a christ-like figure, and be self-sacrificing, or Herakles like. And They can either be a father or a son, giving or taking. This isn't a damn report, so that's all you get. I just thought I'd post something, since people have been commenting about the other posts.

I haven't neccisarily been posting emotionally, just what I was thinking about.

i [confused] huckabees

2006-02-13T21:34:00.000-08:00

So, in a fight between nihilism, and existentialism, or between no connections and everything is connected, who wins. Personally I continue to find myself more and more a nihilist. I won't claim to have led the worst life, but I have seen some shit. And I just wonder how it could be connected. Or good. I see some connections, but still.

[]

2006-02-11T17:31:00.000-08:00

I am not pleased.

Lost

2006-02-10T19:36:00.000-08:00

I look at my future, and don't know what to expect. I've always taken it as a given I would marry, and have kids (well, wife would). Now...I can't see how I could ever be capable of raising kids. I'm scared. Scared of myself. Hell, can't even see having a wife honestly.

Love

2006-02-06T12:27:00.000-08:00

I wonder how many people believe in love anymore.

Still don't have a mule

2006-02-05T06:33:00.000-08:00

I often wonder why in the hell so many people seem to like me. It's wierd.

Camo

2006-01-31T21:20:00.000-08:00

So, I can't figure out my fatigue. I'm sleeping plenty, eating decent (better than normal), and not sick any more.

Stupid body not working the way I want it to!

The confused and stereotypical wanderings of a man without a mule

2006-01-24T20:55:00.000-08:00

I've been sick, still. Actually, I've just gotten better, been sickish for a month. Fuck you illness. But I haven't really had much to say for a long time. I don't think deep jack handy thoughts anymore. Don't really think. I just slog by, day to day, and get along as best I can. Went barhopping for the first time the other night, had a blast, even if I did end up sleeping next to the toilet. My toilet. No, I didn't puke. Probably would have if I hadn't passed out though, so there. I've decided I want a girlfriend, not for the sex or such, but because I enjoyed having someone to go out and do with, and show that 'different' side of most people don't really get to see. But it's difficult, because people see that person, and expect you to be that person, all the time. And when something special gets worn too much, it gets thin and full of holes, and loses it's special. So any girls not afraid to date a fat bipolar asshole, hey, send me a message. I'll probably talk to you, if for no other reason cause it'll be entertaining to see who in the WORLD would want to contact someone with such a glowing advertisment. Kinda like putting an add in the paper saying 'I'll shit on you for 5 bucks' and seeing how many people call.

Title is from recent attempts to read Don Quixote. Tried a couple years ago, but quit cause it makes me sad.

And here's another notice: Lakehouse party, come or die.

eh

2006-01-18T21:20:00.000-08:00

I just don't have anything to say. I've been sick, and tired, and school has started back again.

Lakeside chat

2006-01-05T14:31:00.000-08:00

So, whatever you're doing for UH's spring break, March 13-18, reschedule, and come down to the lakehouse with me. Anyone who wants to attend is welcome, cause I'm going to be there, regardless of who shows up (or no one, like last time). Just putting up a notice NOW since people have 'troubles' with time.

Wee-uhms

2006-01-05T08:37:00.000-08:00

Car's fine; got a new motor, runs like a charm.

Not much else to say really, spent entire break vegersizing and mulling over some things, but nothing really interesting happened, and no rants/raves/cookies.

Laters

Hhr! Blech!

2005-12-18T07:38:00.000-08:00

My car be wounded, if not dead. Or ded.

Weh?

2005-12-15T10:25:00.000-08:00

I had quite possibly the oddest dream of my life last night. I dreamt I was in love, and that I was loved. Was like I was a completely different person. You know those TV shows where the guy just melts cause the 'hot chick' touched him? Like that. Wierd.

Koi!

2005-12-09T21:28:00.000-08:00

So, if love is supposed to be this most powerful, valuable thing, shouldn't it also be the most precious thing? Which means it should have a high price, or be difficult to obtain? So shouldn't it be rare, something to be aspired to, and not given out willy nilly to anyone who asks for it? Can you even call that 'love' really, or just mild affection.

And yes, the pink is intentional. And staying, it makes me feel festive. And pretty. I AM PRETTY GOD DAMN YOU!

Nap

2005-12-07T07:53:00.000-08:00

Still don't have anything to say, just a 'hey it's back up' post. As though it fucking matters.